Classically Overdone
For the love of life, we may have overdone it slightly this past weekend. I think it was equal parts: making up for feeling like last weekend was a barf-filled bust, shaking off some really sad business that was hanging around from the week, and knowing we had an “extra” weekend day. Regardless, we grabbed life by the ears and: rode our bikes every damn day, sang out loud at the top of our lungs, and even cracked in to the holiday-gifted craft-stash with MK doing a lot of painting-while-Moms-got-things-done.
We saw old friends, visited with new friends, went to parties, hosted parties, sipped amazing beverages, dug up weeds, made dinners, had dinners made for us, loved one another, snapped occasionally because: overtired, got the laundry going, danced our familial asses off to some pumping tunes, watched a few movies, slept a little, kissed a lot, and wished we had even more weekend time to do it all over again, and again, and again.
The sunsets and sunrises were banging all weekend long, and I saw a lot of each this past week. I seem to be in a phase of life where I am awake a lot, even though I should probably rest more. I am so hungry for living right now. I want to sink my fucking teeth in, slurp down all it has to give, and feel it all, feel it all, get it all, do it all, do it, do it, do it, obsess and roll things around, snap and clap and dance while I walk my neighborhood with headphones on, truly not giving a single shit who sees me partaking in the raw joy that is fresh air and sun on your face while delicate beads of sweat form on your brow. I want all the juicy mangos, stunning hand-formed tiles, happy little green houseplants, chewy homemade chocolate cookies, and whatever universal pixie dust that helps continue to propel my insatiable appetite for love, lust, and passion. So far, for me, forty is additional life wisdom + still a bit tired, the virility (IDGAF that this is supposed to be a male-based word) of youth, while better learning how to leave harsh judgements in the rearview. We can’t have it all; it’s not possible. But, I’m going to try with all my might to make the most of everything while I can.
