Field of Life
Sometimes,
we have to try our best
to leave it all
on the field of life.
The grass is glistening with dew
in the early dawn hours,
while our hands are clutched
to our chest, as though we could dare
begin to protect our hearts.
Vulnerability and authenticity are so tied
together, that it seems impossible
to have one,
without the other.
I stand, facing west
looking at the great, blue expanse
that is the mighty Pacific.
Her waves ebb and flow,
crash and retreat, in time
with my breath.
I think about all of the times I’ve felt small,
and I turn,
and face the sun rising in the east.
I stand in that window
until the beams
warm my eyes, as tears are pricking
and I feel like I need to lie down.
I steady myself, and inhale 5…4…3…2…
one deep breath in,
one deep breath out,
for all of the times I felt
scared, and yet,
I went in feet first, anyways.